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DTE Nebnom 2022

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DTE Nebnom 2022 [OPEN]
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As a way to put outside everything I've been thinking, most because I don't want to bother anyone with those thoughts, and in part afraid to be taken with not much care of my feelings about it, I will just be putting here. In advance sorry if in some parts I don't make much sense, I will try my best to make sense.


For more than enough time I've lived being crushed by my family and their abusive behaviors, their toxic way of life was the only thing I knew. I always look on forwards to seek a way to this to end or to them to realize how wrong they were. But 20 years living like that and nothing changing is insanity, and live on this chaotic and insane situation, were I was constantly fighting for something that wouldn't happen has it's consequences.


As I said, for live with such family, made me unconsciously look after people that was like my own family, they would comfort me at first and when I had something interesting for them, but would ignore me or even humiliate me when I was no longer needed.


And it happened so so many times, on school, on internet, I meet way too much people like this, got attached to the wrong people.


And with all this situation, were I chose bad situations for myself and situations out of my control and for so so long crushed me so badly, but I can't tell if was only now, 6 years ago or any more further on past, all I can tell is now I can see that maybe it is indeed a long time ago that I should had done something about it, ask for help.


I can tell now that feel always bad and be in a bad situation is bad, and not that " I should endure this a bit longer ", I normalized this to myself, and even saw have a breakdown once and them was something normal, and it's not.


It's not normal to always feel bad, to always be anxious to have breakdowns, it makes me feel like this whole thing toke me away so many years of my life, something that consumed me for so, so long and that I've been cultivating it because I thought to myself I must be stronger.


20 years of enduring a long, slow monster that this year was so big that crushed me, and now that I finally realized that couldn't live with this inside me any longer, I feel so much better, it's not 100% recovered, but I feel now I can live my life with a bit more joy.

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